Ever since I was about six years old, I lived in my imagination. I remember trying to play 'house' with the other girls, but eventually, getting so bored of the happy 'baby and mummy' situation that I'd pretend to be an evil witch who stole the child and put a ransom over his head. To me, this was exciting, but when my 'friends' went home and told their parents, they weren't allowed to talk to me anymore, haha.
Ever since then, those girls used to avoid me. I got so tired of being lonely that I invented imaginary friends to go and have adventures with. My best imaginary friend was a man called Jack, who was a victorian funeral director. I'm not really sure why I made Jack a funeral director, or how at six years old I even knew what one of them was, but I used to love going on adventures with him, and I guess this is where my social skills started to crumble. I lived in my own world, where excitement always hid just around the corner. I could amuse myself with pretty much everything, except other people.
In primary school, this was never such a problem. I could go off on my own and do whatever I want, without anyone coming to annoy me. In my first few years of secondary school, it wasn't so bad either. A lot of 'normal' people are actually fascinated with me and the way I think. I still get people asking me if I could please talk with them, because my conversations are rumoured to be so interesting that they want to experience it for themselves.
But now I'm a few years into secondary school (I think this is high school in America) it's starting to affect me badly. I want to have romantic situations, but I don't have a clue how to flirt or be sexy. I'm quite tall (5'9") and thin (120lbs) with purple eyes (due to a genetic fault. I wear green contact lenses though!) and my facial features are very elfin due to my mixed heritage (Italian and Swiss, with some Roma gypsy mixed in on my mother's side) which I guess, people don't find very attractive. I don't mind this, I don't really care about looks, after all, but even so, there must be other ways of making people attracted to me? I don't want to be this strange alien anymore, and all I really want is to be normal, like other girls! If anyone has any tips, please share!
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